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Web posted by: Alexandria, 7/28/01

the day it happened. That day when my brother-in-law came down and said "Joshua was shot" my 13 year old nephew. I was sitting here in front of my computer and Rob (my borther-in-law) came down with tears in his eyes and said "Joshua was shot" but he did not know what happened or if he was alive.

My heart sank in my chest as we rushed around to find a baby sitter then rush to the hospital. (That ride felt like forever) We finally got there and asked the nurse "How was Joshua" her faced dropped then she led us into a back room and we went and saw everyone crying and my husband and I asked "How is Joshua" and I remeber them saying "He did not make it" those word will echo in my head FOREVER!!!! A 13 year old perfect boy who have ever thing to live for was DEAD!! The story we were told was....he was at a "friends" house and his "friend" was playing with a gun and it went off.

We got to see him about 2 hours after is happened...I remember looking at that sweet face and thinking "OMG This can't be real...I am going to wake up and this will all be over" I remember looking at him and he looked perfect but I knew that under that white sheet was a hold that should not be there!!!

I think I have been through the WORST part of my life...going to the morgue to ID him...seeing his cold stiff body laying in that blue plastic bag. Now all I have are memories of that prefect little boy...who was SOOO exited the day I called him and told him he had gotten accepted into the high school he wanted to go to, or when he used to play with my son and let my 3 year old son beat-him-up. How do you explain to a 3 year old that he FAVORITE cousin in the whole world in gone...how to you explain to him when he asks to "See Joshua" or "Play with Joshua" ~I wish I could wake up out of this nightmare~